It's January 31st at 10:20 pm, have you kept your New Year's resolutions going for one whole month?
I never officially made resolutions for 2012 but there are certain things I wanted to improve on during this year.
In 2012 I want to keep up with this blogging thing.
So far so good.
In 2012 I want to work out.
I don't want to work out to lose weight, although losing weight is nice, I want to work out because working out makes me happy. Very happy! After a nice long sweat session at the gym I'm floating on cloud nine. I have twice the energy I had before going to the gym and it's just the boost I need to get me through the long afternoons once the kids get home from school. I've burned off any negative energy I've been harboring and I'm able to keep my temper in check.
Because I've been working out I've lost just about all the baby weight I put on during pregnancy. (No one was home to take a picture of me so I had to try myself.) The variety of activities you can do while holding a baby should be a competitive sport. I'd excel.
I've lost more than just weight at the gym. Recently I lost the ability to walk without pain. I don't want to go into details but a very smart person gave me some discouraging news today and it looks like I'll be taking it easy for a while.
In 2012 I want to ditch the negative self talk and be a little more forgiving of myself.
Why is it that we're harder on ourselves than we are on other people? I will repeat this as much as I need to..."It's ok that I can't run three miles tomorrow...It's ok...it's ok...it's ok." My mother may disagree, but it's ok to leave the load of laundry in the dryer. I want to read to Carter and Evan before bed tonight. It's ok that we ate Subway sandwiches for dinner on Sunday night. We ate together as a family.
He says, "It's not ok, that I'm in this Bumbo seat again. He says, "I want you to hold me and type with one hand." If I can't train for a marathon I CAN train for competitive typing while holding a baby.
In 2012 I want to finish a project before starting a new one.
I started knitting Carter a scarf at the end of December. I'm not very good at knitting. I wanted to give up, but I didn't. Carter now is the proud owner of a scarf that varies in widths, has a few holes from dropped stitches, and isn't quite the right size for an eight year old's neck.
I finished it though.
sigh.....Evan wants a scarf now.
Resolution number three...
No....not just beans.
In 2012 I want to make more things in my kitchen from scratch.
I love convenience foods, but you can't beat the price of dried beans over canned beans. With my new pressure cooker making beans is easy so I'll stick to making huge batches and freezing them. So far I've made my own teriyaki sauce and my own barbecue sauce. Pretty soon I hope to be making Jonah baby food. It's important for me to do the very best job I can to nourish my family daily. For me, it's worth the extra effort.
It's easy to start something new at the beginning of January but hard to continue through the rest of the year. Is it because our schedules get too busy or is it because we're too scared to push ourselves? Are our standards too high and we talk ourselves out of making change because we think whatever we do won't be good enough? Can we really make a change in 2012?